a journal into mommyhood

this is a written journal i started in 1994. one month after i was married we found out i was pregnant with our first baby. this is now a typed blog of that journal for my daughter, morgan lorraine.

Sunday

sunday, november 20,1994

hi little one! sorry i haven't written in a while, things have been pretty boring out here. how about in there? i am so anxious to feel you move. i thought i felt life (your life) a week and a half ago, it felt like a snake or gas. i guess it was that (gas, not a snake!) i really want to feel you kick! grandmom said enjoy the non- movement now, because when you do start, i'll want you to stop. i know i'll love every kick i feel from you. tomorrow i'm going to the doctors. now when i go, he checks my weight, urine, blood pressure and measures my belly. we hear your heartbeat too. next time we get an ultrasound. this time i'm going to ask for a picture, i wish i did last time but i thought your were too small. i bet you weren't, i'm sorry i didn't ask. grandmom is staying with us for alittle while. it's nice to have her around (sometimes!) daddy can't go with us tomorrow to the doctors because he has to work late, that's okay. i don't want him to miss the next one. thanksgiving is on thurday and we are eating at the cassadays. then we are going to grams (mcclurkins) and pop-pop flyns. we always do alot of running around, so get use to it. i think we are going to the frankford/north game in the morning, uncle joey is going with us too. well, i'll be back to you soon! good night and god bless! love, mommy xoxo

Wednesday

wednesday, november 2, 1994

hi little one, i miss you! hope you're okay in there. this was one busy weekend. friday i took the day off from work (YEAH!) and i relaxed with grandmom (she's been staying with us for a little while, i like having her around!) then friday night we went to lisa and kevin's party. it was fun, but we got there late and i was already tired! daddy and i were herman and lilly munster (i'll show you pictures.) heather was a witch, mike was a girl, lisa was the lone ranger and kevin was tonto. we had fun. on saturday we went on a hayride, all six of us and fred and karen, then a midnight movie. on sunday grandmom cassaday had robbie and sean over for a halloween parade in her section/development. robbie was a ghost and sean was a pumpkin. monday was halloween, we had a doctors appointment. that was the best time to go, we were in and out so quick! the doctor said you are growing fine. that will be the last appointment i make on halloween (becasue of you.) now next week i have to go and give blood for a routine check (OUCH!) i've also been doing a workout tape for pregnant women. i hope you like it! i try and do it every saturday and sunday. this weekend was way too busy! i can't wait to start your nursery! i don't think we are going to arizona this year, maybe next year. be healthy and god bless! love, mommy xoxo p.s. today we are 15 weeks!

Monday

monday, october 10, 1994

hi, little one! tonight daddy and i went to the doctors. we saw dr. steve kessler, because my regular doctor (his dad) was on vacation. anyway, remember when i was so excited to hear your heartbeat? well, he couldn't find it so he did an ultrasound and we saw you on the screen! you were kicking like crazy! we saw your legs and toes and we saw your heart beating! you are so skinny and tiny. i can't believe you're really in there! i love you! daddy was just in here, i'm in bed and he is watching football (get used to it!) and he was screaming at my belly and trying to talk to you. he is so excited. we love you so much! anyway, today is aunt jaime's birthday, she is 17. i remember when her, danielle and seth were born. uncle seth will be 18 next month. i hope you're okay in there. till next time, be heathly! love you & god bless, love mommy xoxo p.s. my next appointment is on halloween. i can't wait to take you out. i like getting dressed up. grandmom used to make great costumes. daddy and i are going to lisa and kevin's party, fun!

Wednesday

wednesday, september 14, 1994

hi, little one. sorry i haven't written in a while. it doesn't mean i'm not thinking of you, because i think of you every minute! heather surprised me with a beautiful, big bear! your first teddy bear, he's huge! lisa and kevin bought you a pretty frame. daddy bought us a record keeping babby book, just what i wanted. i'll keep up with it so you can look back on it like i do with my baby book. grandmom still was writting in my book when daddy and i got engaged, on our wedding day and when i told her about you. it's really sweet. lisa, elizabeth and i went shopping for amanda's birthday gift. we are going over on friday night for cake and ice cream, my favorite! she is going to be 2 on the 16th. it feels like just yesterday when her and elizabeth were born. elizabeth will be 4 on october 7th. i can't wait until everyone comes over for cake and ice cream for you, every year! i promise, and more if you want it! well, good night and god bless! mommy xoxo

Saturday

saturday, september 3, 1994

hi there! how do you feel in there? i'm tired. allergies have gotten bad in these last few weeks and i won't take anything. so i'm suffering! i can't believe it's september already. daddy's birthday is on the 26th and i want to do something special for him. he is so excited about you, little one! so am i! we told a few more people and everyone can't believe it. they say 'i knew it would be right away!' beacuse they know me and how i love babies. i've waited for this beautiful time in my life for a long, long time! i'm so happy! love you! good night, god bless and be healthy! mommy xoxo